When was the last time, so many things coming up frm the blank mind?

Suitors came from everywhere, but the feelings are so different.
I dont know what I want. Simple enough.
I dont know who's that Mr Right.

the Gum is making me so sick right now, swollen red, and pain. Without, the two teeth inside, it's so weird.
I detest that feeling. The pain and my focus on the wound makes my energy used up even faster.
Dont know how to explain that kind of feeling.

Everything seems so wrong.

But I'm glad that I have the " ahs' " family. (Thanks, guys!)

I haven't get rid of his shadow yet. Even tons of efforts that I'd put in, the feelings faded but not yet the fear.
The feelings I had for him, is slightly still holding on there.

Right deep inside, I know there's this another guy that I keep having the same feeling for. At the surface, I would rey to hide it up, as much as possible. But I really hope that one day he will know it's him that I will spend my time to love and rely on.

I so much wanted to take the first step and approach him , but it seems like ,I lack of something called courage.

I'm afraid, of loving again.

Before I fall in love, again. I have to get the feelings right, and his feelings for me right too.