On the first page, of our story.

God have been lenient to me.

I always see "him" inside my dreams, I'm not sure whether is it doing good for me, but it feels so real. and I wish to be inside those dreams forever and never get up. Because that "him" inside my dream, love me still.

I thought that dreams will never come true. Yet god grant me my wish, for being with him for the last time. Even it was just a day, a couple of hours, I felt the chemistry, and us belonging to each other so strong.

I can ignored those words he said to me that day, ignored those sentences that makes me cried. I can ignored the pain that keep me unable to get out of myself. I can ignored everything all.

I looked at him into his eyes, all I can see is a soul that used to keep me secure, keep me warm and unharm from anything.

I aint sure whether is it god that want me to see his true colour, move on from him.
or is it god that showing sympathy on me?


It's been a few days, we kept ourself away from each other. He respect my decision of not seeing him anymore. Maybe perhap, one day, if fate is soft hearted enough for us to meet again.

I didnt blame him for the hurt he gave to me on that day, I've never blame him for anything. At that moment of time, I just wish to see him, I just wish to have the last feel for him, just wish to see that "him" I used to have. as he's onced an important man in my life.

It's a pity that he feels nothing for me anymore.